Quite often I wish I were an extroverted normie who gets energy from being around people. It's obvious it gives you a better quality of life and acceptance, peace of mind, better more memorable experiences. Instead I spend a few hours amongst people and feel so drained I can't even think straight and have to retreat to my home and huddle under my covers and enter my realm where I actually feel naturally comfortable and can recharge. It's exhausting being like this around other people and I feel envious watching how other people get so pepped up and excitable being in public around others. It almost makes me feel like some lesser being if that makes sense.