>>81640876
ohhh, i think i understand now. yeah, it's just that in my experience, i get attached to people a lot, and my mood depends highly on the way my close interactions work. idk if this makes any sense but let me put an example
if i befriend people and they think i am nice and i think they are nice, i think everything is alright and that i can be friends with people, this cloud of "everything is wrong with me" goes away and i start feeling a bit normal, and it feels really nice. but, for example, a person ghosted me yesterday. i'm back to feeling like crap, because i was really attached to this person. and it's not like i pester them or just spam them all day waiting for a reply, it's just that i get emotionally involved, i care about them. so maybe i thought that your emotions could be too tied to those around you just like mine
sorry i am a bit dumb i hope you can understand my point