i clearly remember being an average kid who had friends and even kissed like 2 girls before i hit my teens. somewhere between that and high school something happened that just completely destroyed my ability to socialize, and i couldnt possibly begin to figure out what caused it. i was fat but i was never outright bullied and i even managed to get peer pressured by a girl into being her boyfriend for like a month in middle school. its like one day i just became scared to even interact with or be in the presence of people