sometimes spiders are startling, sometimes they're nothing.

had nights were it's like tripping, fucking spider running across the floor, get back onto bed, close eyes. and then other times where it's just fine or even "for god's sake, here," and that spider gets guided outside with paper.

all over the place with size/speed too like some days tiny little spiders are horrifying and the big ones are fine, other times it's the reverse.