Anonymous
6/30/2025, 2:53:20 AM
No.81662873
>>81658714
>How are you doing today?
I've decided I'm going to be sober for the foreseeable future. Only because I need to lose weight.
>And plans for today?
Nope. I haven't done anything productive and I have been incredibly bored all day.
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
It's been about a year and a half but I feel like every road I take leads me back to cutting. Been craving that feeling a lot lately.
>Why did you hurt yourself?
My answers for this are the same as the last.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
>The way I view myself fluctuates like crazy, sometimes I feel like I'm on top of the world and other times I hate myself. I sulk a lot and think about how pathetic I am.
>I haven't been happy with my life in a long fucking time. I don't remember the last time I enjoyed living the way I do; I'd change it but that's easier said than done because it's in EVERYthing I do: My body, my room, my social group, my relationships with my family, my diet, etc.
>I need to be sober because I abuse drugs (alcohol, weed, nicotine) and I can't lose weight without quitting those. But those are the only things that make me happy or content. I legitimately just don't enjoy much anymore.
My ego is too big to really open up to people I'm close with, and they wouldn't understand anyways. I wish I was someone else. It's not that the cards I've been dealt are bad, I have a pretty good life compared to a lot of people, I'm just not happy anymore. I have nobody irl that I can talk to about this stuff, I used to but I pushed the (one) person away. I don't know what to do, I feel so alone all the time, and I daydream a lot too so most of the time I'm not even living in-the-moment.
Will probably buy some new razor blades today
>How are you doing today?
I've decided I'm going to be sober for the foreseeable future. Only because I need to lose weight.
>And plans for today?
Nope. I haven't done anything productive and I have been incredibly bored all day.
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
It's been about a year and a half but I feel like every road I take leads me back to cutting. Been craving that feeling a lot lately.
>Why did you hurt yourself?
My answers for this are the same as the last.
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
>The way I view myself fluctuates like crazy, sometimes I feel like I'm on top of the world and other times I hate myself. I sulk a lot and think about how pathetic I am.
>I haven't been happy with my life in a long fucking time. I don't remember the last time I enjoyed living the way I do; I'd change it but that's easier said than done because it's in EVERYthing I do: My body, my room, my social group, my relationships with my family, my diet, etc.
>I need to be sober because I abuse drugs (alcohol, weed, nicotine) and I can't lose weight without quitting those. But those are the only things that make me happy or content. I legitimately just don't enjoy much anymore.
My ego is too big to really open up to people I'm close with, and they wouldn't understand anyways. I wish I was someone else. It's not that the cards I've been dealt are bad, I have a pretty good life compared to a lot of people, I'm just not happy anymore. I have nobody irl that I can talk to about this stuff, I used to but I pushed the (one) person away. I don't know what to do, I feel so alone all the time, and I daydream a lot too so most of the time I'm not even living in-the-moment.
Will probably buy some new razor blades today