>>81764951
it's not like i'm only obssessing over women, i'm gonna try to chase a career on toxicology, but ultimately anon, when you grow up as i do, poor,near gang violence, less than ideal home life with a less than ideal male model, no friends,reliant on only me and my mom for my whole life you grow to crave acceptance and love desperately because we are social beings at core. To be loved to me would be able to trust someone with my vulnerabilities without having to worry they'd backstab me with it and to have that someone be willing to carry my kids, as i see it, i either suceed at this or i'll volunteer on the most fucked up warzones i can get myself into at 30 so i can go out atleast on a decent note, hopefully i'll find someone.