I don't feel good about it but everyone else has told me this is how I should have been this entire time. I disagree because you didn't separation I felt the need for faithfulness and loyalty. But I need to recognize that if she's not here and not talking to me then I cannot maintain that because she will not honor it in return. Even though I love her. I know I'm not going to feel that kind of love again but I should just go back to playing the game and fucking girls.