Bethanie

I think I am falling in love with you, and it hurts. I don't think I could ever confront you with my thoughts or feelings. In the very few minutes I can slip away from what I am supposed to be doing without being caught so that I can steal a few minutes of your time is the highest point of my day, and the worst is the crash when you leave.
You probably think nothing of me. There are other men you see daily that are probably better options than me and we both know it. I'm a coward. I'm a coward and for a few minutes a day when you are around I don't hate myself.
There are so many rules and obligations and standards standing in the way. It will never happen. You wouldn't break them for me and I wouldn't blame you.
I want to go stargazing with you or take you to the botanical gardens if you haven't been there yet. I want to see your paintings and drawings you said you've made. I want bury my nose in your hair and breathe in your perfume.Lately whatever you have been wearing smells like lemon cookies and I like it. I want the bravery to pull you close with the knowledge you wouldn't pull away.
I will play it as cool as I can and ignore this. Burry it down. When you look at me in the eyes the way you do it doesn't help though.