Anonymous
7/11/2025, 3:39:42 AM
No.81784555
>>81784446
I like having my brain, it's a useful thing to have, but I wish it would just shut the fuck up sometimes. What's awful is that when I talk about it, people get angry at me, or offer useless advice like "oh just stop thinking" or "try meditation". The only thing that works for me is alcohol. Weed makes me anxious and upsets me, so that's out of the question too. People get mad at me for drinking, or being drunk when I am "not supposed to be" (like being home alone) but they genuinely cannot imagine what it's like having the mental equivalent of a screeching drill constantly playing in your brain 24/7, and for the whole world to constantly be hurting you because of sensory overload.
Even here, on 4channel, an Anon reading this will think "wow stop being so dramatic grow up dude stop talking like a YA novel character your life isn't that tragic", which just proves my point. I'm supposed to just suffer because it's not THAT bad, and knowing that makes me feel even worse, which makes me suffer more. It's great.
I like having my brain, it's a useful thing to have, but I wish it would just shut the fuck up sometimes. What's awful is that when I talk about it, people get angry at me, or offer useless advice like "oh just stop thinking" or "try meditation". The only thing that works for me is alcohol. Weed makes me anxious and upsets me, so that's out of the question too. People get mad at me for drinking, or being drunk when I am "not supposed to be" (like being home alone) but they genuinely cannot imagine what it's like having the mental equivalent of a screeching drill constantly playing in your brain 24/7, and for the whole world to constantly be hurting you because of sensory overload.
Even here, on 4channel, an Anon reading this will think "wow stop being so dramatic grow up dude stop talking like a YA novel character your life isn't that tragic", which just proves my point. I'm supposed to just suffer because it's not THAT bad, and knowing that makes me feel even worse, which makes me suffer more. It's great.