>>81800337
>I would just feel guilty doing some bs
It wasn't bs, it was something in the historical field. Important stuff, but not lucrative. But I get what you mean, it's if you were in that situation. It just gives me reason in life if I'm useful, it's what helps me from feeling suicidal. If I can provide for the one I love so he doesn't have to stress over it and be unable to afford things he wants in life, I can think of no greater reason to stay alive.
>How old are you two?
22, we're a few months apart
>you can handle a job
I couldn't handle a job back then, I could barely manage to attend uni; I had to drop out of a lot of courses due to depressive episodes where I just wouldn't leave the house.
>you earn more than your boyfriend?
I'm in an entry level position for my field, but it makes far more than any job he could get at this time.
>Does your boyfriend even have a job?
Somewhat, he works for family. It was recently that he realized he didn't want to pursue his field anymore, so he's kind of at a standstill for what to do in life.
>Discipline is pretty much the only solution
I'd say it applies to a lot of mental illnesses. I can have good discipline when it comes to things relating to my boyfriend, but when it's helping myself, that's where I struggle. If I don't have to get out of bed for anything relating to him, I find it near impossible to get out of bed, or do anything for that matter. It's just something I've got to slowly chip away at, becoming disciplined for myself.
>If you're the one bringing home income
I wasn't at the time, we were both in uni, living at our parent's home; so his reaction was more than understandable.
>distant family in Poland
It's wild you say that because he's from there

I don't have much I can say other than to keep working at getting a job. Woman or not, you're going to need to take care of yourself one day. I wish you all the luck