>>81846880
>"I want to have social proximity to others, but they seem-"

Stop. Drop that thought and keep going that's all you have to do i can't trust you on if your being honest about going into every new interaction with a fresh headspace if I ask you but literally Ingrain this in your SOUL. Every new interaction is not the previous one you seem to conditioning yourself into thinking a interaction is meant to go a certain way now but drop it. There's no story and preconceptions about the new people your talking to so drop that too obviously.