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>it has nothing to do with that
I think there's probably a lot more to it than you think but I don't think you're going to be able to get it. Our lives are just too different. And like I've tried and tried. Nothing ever really changes when it comes to how I feel about myself.
>you only need yourself
Myself just isn't good enough. I'm not going to be able to get the things I want out of life
>I have not dated someone in years
I don't think it really has to do with how long you've been single. If you got enough experience in the first place then that lets you grow and change. How tolerable was being alone for you before you started dating?
>you are a good big brother. You have a family you love and loves you
Idk I try to be a good brother and I do love my siblings but I just feel like there's a wall between all of us. Like we all joke around and spend time together but I can't tell them I love them without it being awkward, I can't hug them without being pushed away, I try to talk to my brother about how he feels and I just get stonewalled. It just feels like there's no depth to our relationships and I don't know how to change that