The truth is I leave you to feel how you truly feel about me and your constant posts about me is a fight against your inner reaction to what I mean to you. a defensive mechanism because of your feelings for me. When you drive me away will those feelings go away? Will that make you feel better or just exacerbate your guilt over the distance and time we lost? You Tell me to stop and abandon you when all you want is me to stay and show I accept you, truly love you, that I'm real.

The best thing I can do is let you feel how you actually feel.

So I'm going to do that, Maria.