>>81910892
im glad. i dont know. i feel tethered here against my will.
>>81910931
>You don't owe anyone anything
but i do. i owe my mom for keeping me alive. i owe my friends for trying their best to help me. i have so many debts and i dont even know where to start to repay them. instead all im doing is running away.
>You stay alive for them not to suffer
i feel like its the least i can do. i dont have the right to inflict such pain upon others especially if they've been nice to me. but now it starts to not matter anymore.
still, overall i think i agree with most of the things you said anon. thanks for sharing your view.
>Get a glass of warm milk
...i only have water
>>81911027
>but I did
no. you did not. stop blaming yourself. i dont understand why you're doing it in the first place.
>If my friends are miserable and i can't do anything about it am I really a good friend?
again, you are not a therapist. you are not god, you are not a psychiatrist, you are but a person. if your friend dies in a car crash, are you going to blame yourself for not being there to save him? its the same thing.