>>81971491
>i don't think i will ruin his life if i die tho. Its not like he will lose a love of his life. Just a girl he never ended up falling in love with. Like a classmate.
No, Nomi. No. You pay attention right now, because I have been in the position of your brother before. Twelve years ago, my youngest brother committed suicide. He and I were not exactly the closest, but his death still hurt me so deeply that I am still reeling from it to this day. Do things get easier? Sure, a little. But if I could, I would do anything to bring my brother back, to let him know how much I cared about him and to be there for him when he needed. The bonds of family are not inconsequential, Nomi. You are hurting right now so it feels like he'd just move on, but speaking from experience I can tell you that he won't. Do not leave him behind. Do not go where he can't follow. Because if you do, you will leave a hole in his heart that will never, ever, ever heal.