Forehead to the mirror eyes locked repeating "Its over between us" fingernails digging into my palms, teeth clenching between repetitions, trying desperately to believe it and accept it, the forefront of my mind can but the unconcious cannot seem to - I dream of her, torturous dreams, I rip myself out of them like surfacing from water, gasping and drenched. Make it stop, please God make it stop