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None of the texts are "gatekept" they are freely available online.
The Talmud is way too long and it's concerned with law, which I don't care about, since I don't have to live by it.

Theology is interesting, however. And esoteric stuff is also interesting. But it's more of an academic interest, like philosophy and ideas than a spiritual one.
My faith in God is voluntary, I waiver at times, but I choose to believe. I think there is wisdom there, and Christian wisdom is the one that resonates with me the most.