>>82272737
lying to yourself will never solve the issue no matter how hard you try unfortunately. if only it could, life would be so much easier

i thought it was pretty obvious what i want, i want love, and affection.
friends are hard to maintain and just aren't rewarding, i feel like its forced most of the time.
desu tho not having friends is probably not helping me

you have drive, youll get there eventually. that pain will turn into happiness by the end, youll be glad you got out. do your best

>>82272763
nearly 20 and idgaf, no ones gonna see my room anyways

>>82272846
assuming the worst is how i stay safe in any situation. every online experience ive had with men has been or gone bad, i see guys on here talk about raping and cheating on girls, leaking their nudes, etc. look at the fucking burn victim girl, she spent what, weeks or months with a guy just for him to turn around on her and she killed herself. theres no point trusting people. i am always going to assume the worst of people because its the only way to survive in this hellscape