>>82287560
>obsessed with digging into my past
I'm not digging into anything I'm trying to get you to see how irrational your fears are. You are memeing yourself into being a loser. Imagine if a man never left the house, never got a job, never got married etc. because he was so deathly afraid of being struck by lightning. You'd consider him to be a loser who's wasted his life away. You're wasting yours right now and you'll never get another chance to be alive. Being a woman doesn't make you immune to being a loser