Anonymous
8/26/2025, 8:13:39 AM
No.82304583
>>82304391
>Squeeze!
Thank you for the hug. I feel detached and alienated in general.
>Are you getting enough sleep at all?
Yes, i will sleep after this reply.
> What is it that you're looking to hear from people?
I suppose acknowledgement, encouragement and useful actionable advice particularly to improve my career. I'm floundering in a labor job despite a renowned cs education. I think i'm also feeling both hungry for intimacy and cut off from it due to outside pressures making all my feelings towards the opposite sex feel inherently predatory and unwanted despite my tame boring behavior. I feel both vilified for having feelings and any self interest at all, and belittled for not partaking in socialite behavior that i feel i avoided for i thought a moral reason, and now feel alienated from overall. In a sense i feel a betrayal, unfairly castigated, ill advised and then belittled and undervalued for listening. Because of this, i feel a nihilism, a sense that all morality is an unsolvable wad of deceptive contradictions. The only way for those contradictions to make sense is for the ones that invented them to be demeaned and defenestrated as moral arbiters. Unless I can see a serious acknowledgement and a punishment rendered, i am stuck in an anxious limbo where nothing could ever justifiably make sense. I think this is at the heart of what disturbes me about women and feminism. That it is this wad of contradictions to the point where nothing could ever make sense, and it renders its dogmatic adherents to these intimidating fleshpuppets that you can't speak to or reason with or understand. You can only pretend around them while the world dies and life loses meaning, and only find respite away from them.
>I hope I can help in some way!
I appreciate your intent, even if you may not know how to help me. I am off to rest. If you respond to this while I am asleep I shall still be able to read it, even if it is well after the thread has died.
>Squeeze!
Thank you for the hug. I feel detached and alienated in general.
>Are you getting enough sleep at all?
Yes, i will sleep after this reply.
> What is it that you're looking to hear from people?
I suppose acknowledgement, encouragement and useful actionable advice particularly to improve my career. I'm floundering in a labor job despite a renowned cs education. I think i'm also feeling both hungry for intimacy and cut off from it due to outside pressures making all my feelings towards the opposite sex feel inherently predatory and unwanted despite my tame boring behavior. I feel both vilified for having feelings and any self interest at all, and belittled for not partaking in socialite behavior that i feel i avoided for i thought a moral reason, and now feel alienated from overall. In a sense i feel a betrayal, unfairly castigated, ill advised and then belittled and undervalued for listening. Because of this, i feel a nihilism, a sense that all morality is an unsolvable wad of deceptive contradictions. The only way for those contradictions to make sense is for the ones that invented them to be demeaned and defenestrated as moral arbiters. Unless I can see a serious acknowledgement and a punishment rendered, i am stuck in an anxious limbo where nothing could ever justifiably make sense. I think this is at the heart of what disturbes me about women and feminism. That it is this wad of contradictions to the point where nothing could ever make sense, and it renders its dogmatic adherents to these intimidating fleshpuppets that you can't speak to or reason with or understand. You can only pretend around them while the world dies and life loses meaning, and only find respite away from them.
>I hope I can help in some way!
I appreciate your intent, even if you may not know how to help me. I am off to rest. If you respond to this while I am asleep I shall still be able to read it, even if it is well after the thread has died.