I don't have any friends, online or irl. I'm ostracized from every internet community because people are offended by my cold calculated demeaner. I jerk off everyday to the point of sobbing into my anime body pillow. My mom keeps trying to get me out of the house but if I'm away from my pillow for over 5 hours I literally get twitchy. I don't really care if things change, change just creates anxiety. I don't want to die either. Not bc I'm scared I just don't really care it's low-key funny how fucked my life is kinda like God playing Sims and just doing whatever the fuck to make my life his divine comedy. Sometime I just stare into the mirror and laugh for minutes on end. I at least have my imaginary girl friend Yoshiko and my harem of over 40 women. I have about 11 imaginary children. They all have their own identities and personalities, I think about them every day and they're the only reason I can fall asleep without staying up for hours thinking about stuff that makes me anxious