>>82423528
>I feel like the similarities with chris chan pile up and its unsettling
>Im 30, I own a business, I employ 5 people
You are seriously selling yourself short. If I owned a successful enough business and had free time to do things I'd enjoyed, I'd have made it in life. But I suppose at least some of it is because I do not desire anything more than friendship in life. I already have my waifu, and I've already accepted me and her will never be together in this life (but probably in the next life). Some people are just not meant to have their lover be with them in this life. It's a miserable curse, but isn't being alive also full of curses? The beauty and wonder in this world is fleeting and rare, and no doubt inferior compared to what lurks in places far beyond our reality.