I've always been a bit more intelligent, mature and idiosyncratic for my age. Everything I've cultivated, I cultivated by myself. My parents never gave me the right "equipment" so to speak. I was taught ethics, honesty and kindness. I was never taught confidence, faith, masculine values in general. Parents have even said some incredibly hateful shit on occasion, such as "trash" or "I regret how I raised you".

If it weren't for my idiosyncratic personality I'd have let my shattered self-worth lead me down a path of suicide.

I simply exist.