i don't leave the house much for anything but work

i have had social anxiety issues for 22 years

i can't think well when i speak compared to how i type i think it's cause i have made the internet suck a large part of my communication rather than speaking

i am just not normal at this point

talking to people for longer than a few minutes builds up the anxiety

i am way more in my own head

i am not great looking, pale and somewhat overweight

i have been told i am annoying and treated like shit when i have expressed myself in the past

i don't want to pay for it

i don't use the apps

i'm not wealthy

i live with my mum

i'm 35 years old