Anonymous
9/13/2025, 4:46:13 AM
No.82486573
>>82483972
>The 200 bucks i stole though, i know for a fact that my parent would've lended me that money had i simply asked
That's a tough thought, for sure, but I say don't dwell on it too much; what's done is done, and things were resolved as well as they could've been in the end. You were understandably under the spell of the oxys and didn't think straight, it happens to the best of us, and often comes with the territory with recreational drug use from time to time. The things that matter are, one, you stopped the addiction from advancing any further in time with proper resolve, and two, repaid the stolen money in full when you could've, which is more than some people will do, and is more than enough to fully redeem you of all related guilt, shame and/or regret, imho. The fact your parent would've given you the money anyway is just a depressing, useless thought, that may or may not be true and just gives you utterly needless, meaningless pain you really don't need to carry with you anymore esp for the aforementioned factual reasons above.
>bunch of banknotes that i pay into every month to live in my childhood house
One of the best things that happened to me since reciveing disability is that I could afford my own modest one-bedroom apartment. I strongly recomment moving out as it gives you a different prespective, privacy, independence, healthy responsibilities such as cleaning and maintaining the household and will change the nature of your relationship with your parents considerably to the better, ime (suddenly, you have to make an effort to keep in touch with them and/or see them in person, and that shows genuine caring and goes a long way into strengthening the relationship and the meaningfulness of your connection. Absence does make the heart grow fonder in this case).
I pay my mom with direct bank transfers for rent since I don't own a checkbook to write-out checks for the landowner, so we have a sort of a symbiotic relationship in a financial sense.
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>The 200 bucks i stole though, i know for a fact that my parent would've lended me that money had i simply asked
That's a tough thought, for sure, but I say don't dwell on it too much; what's done is done, and things were resolved as well as they could've been in the end. You were understandably under the spell of the oxys and didn't think straight, it happens to the best of us, and often comes with the territory with recreational drug use from time to time. The things that matter are, one, you stopped the addiction from advancing any further in time with proper resolve, and two, repaid the stolen money in full when you could've, which is more than some people will do, and is more than enough to fully redeem you of all related guilt, shame and/or regret, imho. The fact your parent would've given you the money anyway is just a depressing, useless thought, that may or may not be true and just gives you utterly needless, meaningless pain you really don't need to carry with you anymore esp for the aforementioned factual reasons above.
>bunch of banknotes that i pay into every month to live in my childhood house
One of the best things that happened to me since reciveing disability is that I could afford my own modest one-bedroom apartment. I strongly recomment moving out as it gives you a different prespective, privacy, independence, healthy responsibilities such as cleaning and maintaining the household and will change the nature of your relationship with your parents considerably to the better, ime (suddenly, you have to make an effort to keep in touch with them and/or see them in person, and that shows genuine caring and goes a long way into strengthening the relationship and the meaningfulness of your connection. Absence does make the heart grow fonder in this case).
I pay my mom with direct bank transfers for rent since I don't own a checkbook to write-out checks for the landowner, so we have a sort of a symbiotic relationship in a financial sense.
Cont.