>>82492767
>everything on earth is nothing but pain
Objection! What about cute kittens and comfy fuzy slippers or the sound of music you knew from long ago? There is good on earth, anon, you just need to be open to finding it!

>i dont have the balls to kill myself
I had a noose hanging in my room for a month ready for me. I got close a few times and wraped the rope around my neck a couple of times but never jumped; and I'm glad I didn't, cus then, how would I be able to enjoy drugs and listen to rocking music and have interesting conversations with druganons? Not having the balls to do it is a sign you're not whole with the decision imo. Hang on to that spark of life that keeps you moving and keep trying, anon. Good things will guaranteed to happen as long as you keep going and find the good in life insted of being a doomer defeatist and rotting your years away in loathing of the earth.

>i just wish i could piss someone off enough that they beat me to death
That sounds like a painful and retarded way to die. There are other, painless options out there, anon. Just search senctioned-suicide's forum methods mega thread to find out easy, mess-free, pain-free ways to end your life. Heck, if you're an american you can look at a cop the wrong way and dash towards him and get shot and die that way.
What I'm saying is there are a lot of options out there that are better than getting your ass kicked to death by some pissed nigga.

I believe good things come to those who seek them and are open to change and new things. Goodluck, anon, with whatever you're going through and your suicidal thoughts as well. Consider a better way, either by improving your life or end them with the dignity and grace you deserve as it is your god-given right.

Peace!