>>82724213
yeah what he said nomi, it really seems like this thing is torturing you more than when it was a secret now because everytime your brother holds back, you see it as him rejecting you.
But the thing is, he is just being careful, which is actually good

Your mom was given that fake story that rationalizes your run away by your brother, but she is still probably keeping you both on thin ice to make sure you dont actually incest up behind her back. Weather he did it before or not doesnt matter, seeing him carry you to bed, a grown adult guy carrying a grown adult girl to bed, i mean that is lovers 101, she might get the wrong idea, even if it was fine before. Before she would never consider this option because its so far out there, you gotta realize that. No parent thinks oh my kids want to fuck, but because you said you wanted to, it now is something she considers

You are also making yourself suffer. You said before that you got bullied before, and your brother was there for you to make you feel better. Well you got bullied today, and when your brother found you crying in your room, instead of telling him so that he could make you feel better, you told him its nothing. Trust me, weather he wants you or not, he definitely hated seeing his sister cry. Tell him you got bullied, so he can make you feel better. It will be good for both of you. Men love feeling like they are helping or saving a girl, he surely likes being there for you just as much as you like him being there for you