I wanted to save myself for my future husband. I'm somewhat religious and I'm honestly kinda against premarital sex.
No one ever gives me attention and I frequently get ghosted, but recently a guy flirted with me online for the first time ever. I ended up getting off with him while we messaged eachother and I feel very bad about the whole thing.

You can call it wrong, but I haven't talked to him in a few days since it happened. I just feel guilty and dirty.
At the time, I said it's not really premarital sex (since it's not real) but I don't know if that really holds up?

I have been getting ghosted a lot recently by guys once they get to know me. I'm kind of poor and live in the middle of nowhere, I think that pushes people away because I feel "alien" to them, and I think it all makes it hard for them to feel like they could talk to me and have a friendship. So I think that's why I did nsfw things with him that night.