>21yo
>loving parents
>had friends on elementary and high-school
>tall
>nice face
>fit

I had everything to be normal but no, i had to be a lazy introverted who doesn't have any aspirations. I finished high-school doing the bare minimum, only worked like 2 months before quitting and started NEETing till i got into college at the beginning of 2025 (doing the bare minimum).

I don't want anything, i don't want a career, i don't want a job, i can't even imagine myself in a relationship and i don't have any hobbies anymore. I just want to rot in my room and die but i can't, that would destroy my family, i pretend that i care, that i'm getting everything in order. Sometimes i don't even want to get out of my bed, i could spend days without eating, speaking or going outside, but that would worry them and i don't want that. I can't even study, even with all the stupid advice of "no distractions!" "study 25 mins, rest 5!" i can't get shit done like a fucking retard.

I could have been normal but i am not, i am useless.