Get out of your house. I'm 26 and a hs drop out. Your house is your comfort zone and I was kicked out so now I'm living a lie in a religious community. In saying this because I want to help you. Christ is King. I'm telling the truth. Nothing will happen to you if you stay in your house.

This is number 1, to leave your house

Yeah therapy is gay but maybe I'm willing to be a maggot if I'm a rich person just so somebody would listen to my problems. You could get a normal friend to open up to though.