>>82823028
This might honestly make me reconsider therapy for myself, I'm the type to avoid intimacy all together due to how scared and paranoid I am but like jesus I can't even bring myself to actually sleep in the same room as someone due to waking up to my own dad sexually assaulting me before, just I see myself in him with how deep that sense of mistrust can be, being unable to let your guard down even to someone you're meant to trust, the thing is I can easily say everything that happened to me here since I'm anonymous but in real life? I keep everything to myself, not even my own family knows everything he did to me so they still go on at me to talk to him, acting as if I'm the bad one for not wanting anything to do with him, hell part of the reason why I've refused therapy for so long is that I don't want to get him locked up since my brother still loves him, like you can see how something like that can ruin my trust in people and that's still just the surface, I just hope you're doing better and that he's getting the help he needs since I'm scared that I can just end up like him