>>82829866
I'm not completely scared of them but I am definitely unable to be myself around them, unless I know them really well, like I know my mom and grandma. I don't know why and it makes no sense as I could overpower 99% of them and oftentimes I am of higher status than them. And I become even more scared when I am aware one of them is into me, which has happened several times.
I used to pretty much get red in the face and freeze up around unknown women as a teen. As I got into my 20s, I got that under control and I don't blush anymore. But the idea of flirting with them or having non-professional conversations is alien to me, in that I can't imagine myself pulling it off unless she made an effort to get to know me a bit. A few women have done that but still I could have awkward moments when alone with them, or run out of things to say, knowing that they're not into the same stuff I'm into.