Anonymous
10/19/2025, 6:47:06 PM
No.82851625
>>82851074
>>82851105
Some people's brains are rigged-up like that, I found. Self-medicating isn't a bad idea, but Alcohol is. Choose a better drug. I cope with Meth.
I believe everyone has a god-given right to end it all, and should be allowed to, if they are of sound mind when making the choice. If all you ever wanted was to die since childhood then maybe it was ment to be.
But I think you have a lot more steam in you yet, and must see some worth to life, being here and alive right now, and actively looking for solutions.
In the end, don't throw away a life that might eventually be worth living for a dark period that will pass in the right conditions. Would it not pass, you are within your rights to kys whenever and however you like as a free person and being of sound mind.
I hope you choose life, though. In my darkest time (3-4 years ago) I had a noose hanging in my room for a month waiting for me to have the courage. I got close a few times, and tightend the noose around my neck a couple of times, but didn't jump. And, ultimately, I'm glad I didn't (so far). There are hard lives who are worth living despite the difficulties; and my life IS hard. (Not to say yours isn't, ofc)
A change in setting (moving from home to my own place) was productive in giving me room to recover and see life from a different prespective. Plus I got disability income so I'm never wanting of anything. My life IS harder than most, but I find worth and even beauty in it in my own way. It's easier said than done, and there's no magic trick that would get you to do the same thing seccessfully, or turn the right nob in your mind. But I hope that in your journey you'll find what I have found, and be capable and willing to leave the suicidal thoughts behind; and live *the* life you desire, or at least *a* life you'd be content with.
Having said it all, it's your decision, and both options are valid.
t. 28yo schizo
>>82851105
Some people's brains are rigged-up like that, I found. Self-medicating isn't a bad idea, but Alcohol is. Choose a better drug. I cope with Meth.
I believe everyone has a god-given right to end it all, and should be allowed to, if they are of sound mind when making the choice. If all you ever wanted was to die since childhood then maybe it was ment to be.
But I think you have a lot more steam in you yet, and must see some worth to life, being here and alive right now, and actively looking for solutions.
In the end, don't throw away a life that might eventually be worth living for a dark period that will pass in the right conditions. Would it not pass, you are within your rights to kys whenever and however you like as a free person and being of sound mind.
I hope you choose life, though. In my darkest time (3-4 years ago) I had a noose hanging in my room for a month waiting for me to have the courage. I got close a few times, and tightend the noose around my neck a couple of times, but didn't jump. And, ultimately, I'm glad I didn't (so far). There are hard lives who are worth living despite the difficulties; and my life IS hard. (Not to say yours isn't, ofc)
A change in setting (moving from home to my own place) was productive in giving me room to recover and see life from a different prespective. Plus I got disability income so I'm never wanting of anything. My life IS harder than most, but I find worth and even beauty in it in my own way. It's easier said than done, and there's no magic trick that would get you to do the same thing seccessfully, or turn the right nob in your mind. But I hope that in your journey you'll find what I have found, and be capable and willing to leave the suicidal thoughts behind; and live *the* life you desire, or at least *a* life you'd be content with.
Having said it all, it's your decision, and both options are valid.
t. 28yo schizo