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When you're feeling up to it you should just look for a nice guy. There's no reason you can't find one. I knew a girl who went from doing some pretty weird and upsetting shit to marrying a very nice, very vanilla guy and settling down. They're still happily married, it's very cute. You can have that too if you want it, don't let yourself think otherwise.
I meant you weren't in first place in thread though, your desire for a loving relationship is anti-degenerate