>>82882890
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>be a literal who streamer
>decide to shop around and find low viewer women I think are cute because I want a girlfriend
>find this unique looking chick who lives across the sea
>she's kinda funny and her personality is endearing to me
>worm my way in by chatting and hanging out in her streams, become a mod
>she starts to hang out in my streams too
>I get curious and stalk her reddit history a little
>huh she posts on r/femaledatingstrategy, kinda weird but okay
>eventually we talk on discord DMs
>I'm into her, she's into me, everything is great I now have an e-girlfriend just like I wanted
>we call each other cutesy pet names and engage in much conversation and ERP, I'm simping HARD at this point
>she absolutely refuses to send any lewds, which was fine, I'm not gonna force her to do something she's uncomfortable with
>we talk on voice for the first time and apparently I said something that had upset her
>apologize, even though what I said wasn't anything intended to make her feel bad
>go on as normal, but every other day or so she brings up the thing I said again so I can keep apologizing in circles
>trying really hard to be a thoughtful and understanding person, but my patience has limits
>tell her she's "being a pain in the ass" in a joking sort of way
>she takes this deadly serious and this is now the new thing she will constantly bring up for me to apologize for
>every few days we repeat a cycle of "talking, I say something, she takes offense and holds it against me"
>starts to actively berate me and call me names, will act really sweet and then do something like hang up on me mid call
>making me feel like a monster, like a huge piece of shit, like I'm losing my mind, she's making me responsible for her internal feelings
>ask a female friend for advice and share some of the DMs that weren't sitting right with me
>she straight up tells me the bitch is insane
>but I rationalize it, make excuses, etc
>I'd try to distance but was drawn back in