>>82912204
I don't know what to say or how I could relate to you, OP
But for me, the past few years hasn't been about me *learning* per se, but remembering. Like, imagine the confidence of a toddler where he just shits his pants in public.

Bad analogy sure, but I don't know. To me it just feels like to have that sort of confidence again, like not a care in the world