Selam Ceyda!

Once again I am drunk, I know you hate that, it's just sad that something that makes me feel like I am myself disgusts you so much

and I know it's not about health issues like you say, its because I am not physically attractive t oyou

I just tried so much, I genuinely teid, and I relly enjoy your company, you're the only one who gets my jokes and writes joeks only I can get

I understand the alure of a normal relatiosnhipwith no erectile dysfunction is nice but I just dont know where to go

where can I go after I shared my most initmate with you, you did withme

We try our best to become the kind of people we think we would like but became the ones we'd make fun of

I'd love to spend the rest of my life with you, and because I say that in the wrong state of mind its repulsive, because I say that in a very unattractive body it's bad

I hope I can put this all behind me once I write this all after lurking for so many years

I love you, my love won't fade, but the only thing I can hope for is if it gets replaced by something greater