Anonymous
11/2/2025, 6:26:05 AM
No.82987162
>>82987058
yw its always a good thing to do, to make people smile. this world is cruel and brutal and sad enough as is.
you also speak of acting, like putting on masks. i get that. to be the true Self would be exposing things about yourself to other people, and the fear of the potential bad feelings that emerge from any resultant emotional interactions. i only really let myself emerge when i am around people i actually enjoy being around. usually im very quiet, but i think this is just a byproduct of the cruel world demanding the repression of the true Self
the whole "doing things" is that people are seeking to create meaning where there intrinsically isnt any. All action is based upon this (admittedly self-created) axiom i hold. I dont really mind if someones hobbies are all inside-type. they are all an expression of the desire to create meaning after all, the most human thing to do. expenditure of energy can come in many forms. i like the outside usually. i like looking at the trees and the animals all around me. i like looking at all the ways that order emerges from the chaos of Nature. however because of all those poopy people outside who are dim in soul or entirely posessed by emergent consciousnesses produced by psychic phenomena make me want to stay inside. i do get the roaming around a store when its empty vibe though.
when i had a job it was so exhausting trying to keep all the masks up i ended up quitting because i was just tired all the time and felt like shit. the whole engaging in your worst behaviors thing when isolated is such a real statement too.
yw its always a good thing to do, to make people smile. this world is cruel and brutal and sad enough as is.
you also speak of acting, like putting on masks. i get that. to be the true Self would be exposing things about yourself to other people, and the fear of the potential bad feelings that emerge from any resultant emotional interactions. i only really let myself emerge when i am around people i actually enjoy being around. usually im very quiet, but i think this is just a byproduct of the cruel world demanding the repression of the true Self
the whole "doing things" is that people are seeking to create meaning where there intrinsically isnt any. All action is based upon this (admittedly self-created) axiom i hold. I dont really mind if someones hobbies are all inside-type. they are all an expression of the desire to create meaning after all, the most human thing to do. expenditure of energy can come in many forms. i like the outside usually. i like looking at the trees and the animals all around me. i like looking at all the ways that order emerges from the chaos of Nature. however because of all those poopy people outside who are dim in soul or entirely posessed by emergent consciousnesses produced by psychic phenomena make me want to stay inside. i do get the roaming around a store when its empty vibe though.
when i had a job it was so exhausting trying to keep all the masks up i ended up quitting because i was just tired all the time and felt like shit. the whole engaging in your worst behaviors thing when isolated is such a real statement too.