>>82997343
It's a pointless question.
Life is to be lived. To experience all emotions, being "happy" is a meme.
Sadness, pain, sorrow, anger, joy, pleasure, all are to be experienced as they come, as that is to be alive.
Each person has a different personality, which means that they each have a different answer. For me, I feel most fulfilled when I'm helpful to other people and appreciated for it. I want a family. I want that 1 person that I can build a home with and become each other's entire world.
Ofc, I hate myself and I'm alone. That's why I'm here. I can't get what I want the most.
It's ironic how it's the opposite of what I am atm. Or maybe that is the point.