I am a diagnosed Schizophrenic currently on medications after being hospitalized, I have constant thoughts of wanting to kill myself and dealing with delusions(common) and hallucinations (less common). I was originally going to kill myself via hanging, though my father found the rope in my closet then took me to be treated at the psych ward where I was diagnosed. I am a neet currently as I am to fucked in the head to hold down a job or any regular form of employment and I constantly fantasize of killing myself since life keeps JUSTing me.