I wish you the best but I just don't buy into transsexualism as a thing.
I don't think it's a condition or medical issue, so I simply don't buy the framing that you "need" to do it and i think it's just a whim taken extremely far. I think of it as kind of spoiled honestly, but maybe this is just me having a crab bucket mentality and being angry at others who want to change something they're unhappy with, instead of dealing with it like I do.
But I do hope it works out for you and I don't wish you harm.