>always wanted to have friends during childhood
>everyone was mean and rejected me
>keep running into shitty groups
>even my parents bullied me
>develop selective mutism as a result
>dont care about socializing and making friends anymore
>NOW I run into kind people
>NOW everyone is friendly and understanding
>NOW girls show interest
>now when Im basically ruined and cant benefit from it anymore
This has to be a bad fucking joke. I tried to take use of these new circumstances but I just cant connect with people anymore.