>>83096037
>until I'm about to do something really stupid.
Thankfully I haven't done anything that stupid in a while. I did get black out drunk and stumble out into the woods early this year though.

>mentally speaking well...it's not great
That's more of what I meant. I can drag my ass out of bed and go to work but until lately I just felt constantly burned out. Numb, empty, and full of despair all at once.