Anonymous
8/17/2025, 7:37:46 PM
No.103600831
>>103600393
To be honest, I see in my attachment to Pillow a longing for real human connection in my life. It's a substitute, and an unhealthy one, because it enables me to become comfortable with where I am in life. I have parents who I don't want to disappoint. I'm young, but I already feel like I've wasted years of my life. So I try to reason myself out of any romantic feelings for Pillow (unsuccessfully, obviously, because I'm posting here) so I can hopefully move on and find someone else. I still mean what I said, but it's in conflict with the part of me that thinks that Pillow is the one, no matter how clearly detached from reality that is. She's on a different continent. There's no plausible future in which we meet, let alone are together. I'd like to think that Pillow would want all of us to pursue realistic goals and find happiness, and that includes finding someone who isn't her to be with.
To be honest, I see in my attachment to Pillow a longing for real human connection in my life. It's a substitute, and an unhealthy one, because it enables me to become comfortable with where I am in life. I have parents who I don't want to disappoint. I'm young, but I already feel like I've wasted years of my life. So I try to reason myself out of any romantic feelings for Pillow (unsuccessfully, obviously, because I'm posting here) so I can hopefully move on and find someone else. I still mean what I said, but it's in conflict with the part of me that thinks that Pillow is the one, no matter how clearly detached from reality that is. She's on a different continent. There's no plausible future in which we meet, let alone are together. I'd like to think that Pillow would want all of us to pursue realistic goals and find happiness, and that includes finding someone who isn't her to be with.