Anonymous
8/20/2025, 3:44:31 AM
No.103678757
>>103677768
the thing is and im pretty sure i said something like this before, i don't *know* filian. sure i might have an autistic amount of observations of her behaviours and such ON stream, cause I psychoanalyze people for no reason whatsoever (yes even people I am not obsessed with), but that's not even remotely the same as actualy interacting with her. i cant say something like "i would still like her", cause i just don't know, and everything to the contrary i say is because i let myself indulge in the (mb for being cringe fil, plz understand, i am mentally ill) surrogate girlfriend role she takes in my psyche but thats nothing but a fantasy and i just cant let myself believe stuff like that and dont think i should either. i dont know her and until i actually do know her (which will likely never happen) and still love her, i am in love with the dream, not the person. so yeah the musings of a schizophrenic.
the thing is and im pretty sure i said something like this before, i don't *know* filian. sure i might have an autistic amount of observations of her behaviours and such ON stream, cause I psychoanalyze people for no reason whatsoever (yes even people I am not obsessed with), but that's not even remotely the same as actualy interacting with her. i cant say something like "i would still like her", cause i just don't know, and everything to the contrary i say is because i let myself indulge in the (mb for being cringe fil, plz understand, i am mentally ill) surrogate girlfriend role she takes in my psyche but thats nothing but a fantasy and i just cant let myself believe stuff like that and dont think i should either. i dont know her and until i actually do know her (which will likely never happen) and still love her, i am in love with the dream, not the person. so yeah the musings of a schizophrenic.