>>40565652
Im sorry anon, but I can't help but feel bitter towards God for my life. I dont know if your a christian or just a diest or whatever, but I am a christian. My life was meh before, pretty dumb but happy honestly. Had high hopes for the future. 6 years later and I have nothing to show for it, Im a bitter, broke virgin seeing all my joys and aspirations fade away. I feel like I dedicated my life to someone who doesn't care at all whether I worship him or not. Seems like every day, life gets more boring, and things I liked about myself personally, seem to fade away. All i wish for now is just not heaven or hell, but to be removed from existence.

Honestly idk why im rambling about this, I just had to get it off my chest. Im glad your doing good though.