Aq i have been more detached with life and society as a whole then ever i am past the point of wanting to bet better i just want any form of conestion but i hate that feeling so i wish to get worse i can either depend on instinct becoming almost animistic until i die become dependent on hatred like i have been accept i can not be happy and turn to hatred and envy as my main guiding emotions or depend on leaching strength from those around me the problem is i have no one around me i am lost currently and i just want to stop suffering