>>12335114 (OP)Because some evil entity summoned me here. I actually think I was created in a world that has no ability to foster any hope I have ever had and god laughs at me and watches me defy it.
I have it even worse off than 90% of you fuckers I have a sound diseas, narcolepsy, and a disease that makes me constantly feel like I am nutting but in a bad way. Despitw this I try my best to create and push out positive things and things meaningful to me
I do not even have a family, I was abused all my life and isolated from my extended family, no parental love, my sibling is a sociopath who has even tried to murder me.
I thought the point of my life was to meet nice people who were better than the fajily I grew up with and that the world was expansive and full of nicer people, but all I have met are sociopaths. Even someone I knew for 5 years said "we barely know eachother" none of my friends comferted me after my engagement fell through and I was suicidal, and my best friend of a decade ignored me for months while living with me because somehow their partner convinced them I had no problems. I actually became so sad that I almost died. My muscle began eating itself, and I was withering away physically.
I still live in pain every day, even loud car noise near my house is processed wrong in my head and causes me immense pain, I cannot think and get depressed. 99% of people I ever met just treat me like I should have been put down for being abnormal.
but I will be the best person I can to others I love in this world, I will keep drawing and making things important to me, and I will try to enjoy this life I've been given despite the cruelty and knowing that I might never live in a world that I find to be caring of others. I will help the people that are and make things that are important to me and others can enjoy.
I have a feeling I am going to be killed prematurely before my dreams reach fruition but I will try. I bet god is having a lot of fun tormenting me up there.