Hiya anxious anon here, its been nearly a year now I think?

Anxiety/ panic disorder or whatever you wanna call it, such a prison. I can't even help myself sometimes! It just doesn't let me.

If I try deep breathing, if I reach for my anti-panic meds, sometimes if I even move an inch, just makes it worse.

It's a trap that hurts you when you try to get out of it. How the hell am I supposed to beat this?

>>12402400 (OP) (dubs lol)
dunno lol
depending on how bad it is i go outside and pet a cow for an hour or so

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>>12402400 (OP)
(dubs)

I understand very well Anon, it happens to me even though I don't take medication.

It's a horrible feeling, but I really hope your panic attacks don't last too long because they really are hell.

In my case, I have had panic attacks lasting three hours, and it is truly a terrible feeling. I hope you get better, you are free to vent.

I wanna move but my blood is boiling
I wanna cry but I can't remember how

>>12402405
They last hours for me too! Its also paired with extreme nausea (anxious vomiting) and the peak of the panic attack would be throwing up. I know logically I'm not most afraid of throwing up itself, it is scary but I've done it before when drunk and it really isn't that bad. Pair that with panic though, feels like a death sentence.

I'm trying to figure out ways to make panic easier for me so I don't spiral as much. Of course getting desensitized to throwing up will probably help, but I'm not sure how to do that without also the panic part. If I do both, not only will it suck, but it will also set me back.

After a really horrible panic attack, its usually followed by a month of agony and fear. I couldn't even move in my bed at night for like a week after one.

This will sound ridiculous but I'm tempted to try and develop of fetish for throwing up just to cope with it. I'm trying to trick myself into romanticizing it so I'll feel excited instead of scared.

I do recall one night, before my disorder got out of hand. I drank too much alcohol and I threw up very gently a couple times in the bathroom, listening to music and resting while I waited for my body to throw up some more.
I kinda have nostalgia for it.

>>12402424
I'm sorry about that and I hope you can cope and find a coping mechanism.

My panic attacks make me shake too much, they make me cry and my screams from crying cannot be heard.

There are times when this panic causes me to be unable to speak for a few hours, and it also causes me to be unable to see people.

It's like watching those super shy anime characters...but not moecute.

I have even self-harmed due to panic.

Hello ex army here with ptsd and mental health disorder. I understand you pain... not know your likes or dislikes or region what helps me is turn on Spotify and listen to English cover of anime themes some relax me and let my head clear... of if anime is ur thing and anime themes are you could try that.

You should kill yourself

>>12402400 (OP)
when i get those usually it helps to talk with people, its the only consistent enough cure
otherwise if meds dont work, then the best i can hope for is to lie down and struggle while my nervous system tries to sort itself out
i hate the imminent feeling of death
it almost makes me hate people who do nothing about it because they dont know what its like to feel that unearthly feeling
ignorance should be a crime

>>12402400 (OP)
I've seen someone suggest that you should start acting like you won a championship, start saying "YEEEEAAAAA" and gesture as such

>>12403231
sometimes the brain is just retarded like that so i can see that working

Hey anxious anon, it seems you're going through a lot. Did you already try thinking of something you really like when these moments come? An anime, game, a person or a pet, places you like or would like to go. Maybe this could be helpful. If it doesn't let you uncomfortable, lurking through comfy boards (in 4chan and other chans too) could distract you a little

I'm not sure if this will help.
I sometimes get sleep paralysis in the middle of the night you know, hearing footsteps and seeing shadows, incapable of moving except my mind.
Here's what I did, I fought it by staring and praying hard. Move my mouth to say something. Moving my fingers then my arms forcefully, It is hard, but now I can dispel paralysis with my strong will from training this.

>>12403198
Talking to other people, helps it.
The first panic attack I got was knowing how the world will end, then I talked it out with a friend. He says its ok just focus whats now, then I'm like alright and slowly but surely my fear was gone. I don't know much of the future but now is the best time to be prepared.

Good luck in your anxiety or whatever, kick that emotions to the nuts! And hear their kimochi~

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Thank you all for the suggestions and sharing your experiences! Unfortunately for my case, coping mechanisms of any kind are really ineffective due to how severe the disorder is. If the ball starts rolling, is nearly impossible to stop until either I throw up and its over, or I sedate myself with antipsychotics. But even then, taking the medicine makes me anxious in fear of getting desensitized to the meds to the point where they may no longer work.

Its a very hellish paradox, if I try to cope it will punish me. Like a rubber band, the more I pull away the tighter it gets.

I'm sure that peace will come to me in time, at least I am hoping so. One day I will find a break in the loop and it won't have power over me anymore.

Currently I am working on getting therapy and psychoanalysis to help with the issue.