today i got stressed so my body randomly made me feel like i was suddenly losing oxygen even though my oxygen levels were fine
i'm so tired of the pain s4s, i'm tired of fearing for my life all the time because of my chronic illness
i just wanna be a little happy for once

shhhh relax

>>12402853 (OP)
Anxiety sucks, in enough time you start to get actually sick from it and feel like you're gonna drop dead any moment
Let's be hopeful and wish for inner peace

>>12402858
i always try to then panic when i start to think that i'll wind up losing too much oxygen if i give into it, i'm afraid of everything turning to white and the numbness taking over
but it never comes, yet i can never shake that feeling

>>12402853 (OP)
>>12402864
I am sorry friend, I wish life was kinder to you

>>12402860
>in enough time you start to get actually sick from it and feel like you're gonna drop dead any moment
i've been dealing with it for over half a year, you'd think i could get used to it by now but every time it feels just as terrifying

>>12402853 (OP)
You can be in pain and still be happy OP, I can relate I am in almost constant idiopathic stomach pain eventually it kind of just blends in and you normalize it, and the things that would make you happy still make you happy, you have to resist the preconception of "I can't enjoy this because my body doesn't feel good." At least that's how it is for me I know managing medical stuff can be a whole lot depending on what you have, I think whatever that is my advice is try to just live your life as if you didn't have that stuff going on (at least as far as you can while still managing it), and when you get really into whatever cool things you are doing you won't perceive the discomfort in your body nearly as much as when you're sitting around focusing and agonizing over it.

>>12402867
i dont enjoy my normal life that much either, not really much to feel happy about
just feels like whatever i do never seems to be enough so i'm always miserable and on edge

take clonazepam

>>12402873
i wanted to get on benzos but my doctor didnt want me to, perscribed me buspirone instead

>>12402870
Well there's a lot you can do to try and change this! What kind of life do you think would make you happy? Assuming you are still the same you with all your quirks vs. magically cured and normal

>>12402876
get another doctor and tell them buspirone didn't work

>>12402878
having a loving girlfriend and a nice job
i cant really get either

>>12402890
Of course you can get both. Getting a nice job is just a matter of learning skills. A lot of places you can learn those on the job like for trades. You have to apply yourself and git gud then you'll get a sweet job, don't fall in the trap of working a dead end job that gives u no skills just to get by, you can do this for a little while if emergency but don't let it become forever. We all have to keep growing and a lot of jobs don't really let u past a certain point. Getting a girlfriend is not completely up to you but it's %100 possible for everyone and more likely the more you put yourself out there and the more you focus on your own health and living well urself vs. actually *trying* to get a girlfriend. I know this is all cliche as h*ck but I don't know what else to say, thems are the breaks just don't believe all the doomposting you read on r9k.

I heckin love blogposting it's so fun and wholesome

>>12402909
theres a difference between blogposting and having a mental breakdown

>>12402906
i have skills, but employers dont care because they'll just find some old guy with 20 years of experience in the field for an entry level job instead of being willing to train people for their jobs
i've tried all sorts of things but people just dont give a damn, they all just wanna force me into some depressing menial labor work for far less pay than i want
as for girls, i just don't know, i'm afraid of them i think, i dont want to be traumatized by trying to hook up with somebody

>>12402933
are you a creep

>>12402853 (OP)

>>12402936
no, i just keep worrying they i'll be hated or something

>>12402987
they wont unless you're odd

>>12402990
do you know where you are?

>>12402992
McDonald's?

>>12402994
can you grab me a mcdouble a junior chicken a medium fry and a medium coke then?

>>12402997
no that's unhealthy

>>12403002
well what are you getting?

I'm killing myself

>>12403003
McFish and medium Sprite

>>12403015
I'm leling myself (lole)

>>12402987
are you a weirdo?